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fredag 13 januari 2017

Insomnia



There are trails of light to follow in this world of darkness.

I read in the paper that people who stay up late have higher IQ. That is certainly not the issue here, anyway.
I've had some problems with this sleeping thing, I fall asleep during the evening, easily and then stay up late. Uneasily. But I think this is a time for insomnia, not just for me. We are going through a rather bad time in our family, that puts everything in motion inside.
Outside , however, there are sufficient causes for insomnia and nightmares. It's hard to tell what threat is the worst, the silent moving evil in the peaceful neighbourhoods we used to have, or the blizzards and thunders coming out from King Kong the 27th and other crackpots that are ruling the world or intending to. I am , in spite of all this, at ease , the words " You have no power over me" could be pointed at any of these as well as at Evil itself.

However strong in faith I may be, the suffering going on amongst fellow human beings, is horrifying. The single most horrifying about it is that I do very little to prevent it. I don't mean anyone of us could walk up to the nearest high and mighty and say" enough now!".  But there is much pain very close at hand, and very little is done to stop even that. Perhaps we are overwhelmed with this?
Looking closely and more sensible at this, there really ARE things being done, not by me as often as I would wish, but by others.

There are also organizations in which one can cooperate with others and create a stronger voice and stronger action against darker powers. In the church of Sweden we give aid through the ACT-alliance and the WCC. We can contribute through f.i ECPAT, UNICEF, SOS-childrens villages, Red Cross and many others that are willing to do the close-up work I fear I could never cope with.
I am challenged by the happenings very close to me, the refugees, the beggers, the homeless, the hidden violence behind closed doors and the growing shadows in what used to be peaceful streets .
Almost every day there are shootings in my hometown and very often someone dies. That is new to us. The burning cars and houses also. Ferocious fights with hundreds of participants take place all over. New Years eve was a "warzone" in some places, gangs aiming fireworks at eachother and all over.
In the middle of all this we have the leaders, the rulers, the selfappointed, "Godgiven", blindfolded leaders that has lost all sense of love for those they lead. They say that people get the leader they deserve, elections and all but we know that is not always true. Bad times can twist peoples minds, fear can create panic and with panic you take the wrong actions and make bad decisions.

You are a very sensible and warmhearted lot, you who sometimes visit this blog and whos blogs I gladly visit. I believe that very often we do more than we think. I also believe we have our chances to do good, some of us are not the kind rushing in and starting a movement of good, but sufficiently many are good followers. Everyone of us have got one or two great gifts to be used when needed, and it doesn't have to be any great deeds. Just making the best of family and friendship, loving ones work and being nice to who ever we meet, makes a difference. Evil gets weaker when people resist bitterness and unkindness. When we have hope. When we keep speaking up, even if we are not in the frontline. When we insist in caring and getting emotionally involved.
 The easiest way is to turn our backs and mind our own business, thinking it's too much for anyone to deal with.
But that is not what most people do, even if it is getting cold in peoples hearts, just as Jesus predicted, but I pray enough will stay warm.  And that I dare to be more than just a talker. Sigh!

Right now the actual cold is the worst threat to many and people are dying in southern Europe, mostly those without homes...no water, no electricity, no roads, no food. Famine and natures disasters can at least be dealt with through sufficient aid and money from us who have plenty.
The evil in war and human interactions is more difficult to handle, but we must remember we are not alone here, praying and keeping faith  and hope will eventually cure the insomnia, but the nightmares will stay on until daylight finally breaks through and darkness is no more.
There is a trail of light to follow, and so much love still to find in humans, I think I'll go to sleep now!

fredag 6 januari 2017

The road is suitable for skaters and ducks

Good evening, this the 6th of january, celebrating the arrival of the three wise men, three kings or the astronomers.  Caspar, Melchior, Balthazar .
Surface and depths are present all over, even in us!!
Celebrating the meeting when the child is seen for who he really is. Surface gone, depths revealed!!!
Meetings are important to us, indeed. Some meetings leaves us untouched and some don't.
To some meetings we come prepared but not for some.
Some meetings leaves us in the dark and some makes us understand one or two things .
Sometimes the meeting leaves us in bitterness when we realize the true nature of the one we met, sometimes, often enough its the opposite and we leave with a bright feeling inside.
The meeting with the holy child can take place any time and any place , when we read about it today we may think we are met with yet another fairytale but the truth of it is soo much larger than our imagination. What if Herod actually had dared the meeting? The only thing he now met was his own greed and fears.  The wise men went home much richer, Herod was left in souldeep poverty.   In church today we celebrated with lights and singing and the christening of a small girl called Ines. Later today I went to one of our chapels and celebrated with the small crowd there. That particular community celebrates 130 years this year!!! The songs we sang there are just as old.

Hereby I declare Winter. As far as it goes that is, snow is still nonexistent in our parts!!
This is actually the same field where the major tent has its place during the Jazzfestivals, now a world of ice.
No chance to reach your house...

Another meeting that has taken place in our part of the world was that with winter and water.

Temperature was dropping quickly and the wind was amounting to top speed.
This is a coastal are, the coastline and the harbours lining up from east to west, are somewhat vunerable and so several parts of several towns have been waterfilled right up to those streets called f.i Harbourstreet or Beachalley. Cars, trolleys and bikes found themselves drowned in water, people couldn't reach their parkinglots and in many cases, their own gardens. And then arrived mr Frost.
My collegue came home from a small trip to his daughter down south, and couldn't park, he would have needed a boat. It was a road suitable for ducks, as was the surrounding garden and the common walkingsite.  Today, come 11 degrees celcius, we have gardens, roads and smaller parkareas suitable for skaters instead. TV broadcasted watercovered roads with ducks peacefully swimming across the highway .  Winter came in a different manner, no snow but OH the ice!!
A couple of days ago the beach was grey and the temperature around 10 celcius.
And so the water rushed up and froze where we usually walk in peace...


Here is that very same beach a couple of days later, read;today, -13 degrees celcius and icicles covering the pebbles and the seaweed.
I just heard on the radio that a smaller town south of us are without centralheating and electricity has been gone for hours, about 14000 households .
Still, we have people sleeping on parkinglots and under bridges tonight, some of them may not survive. The families we know of went back home when the cold came, thank God, but there are still people out there . I pray they will have shelter.
God bless all of you, may your meetings be joyous and warm!!!







lördag 31 december 2016

Ring out, wild bells!!!!

In Memoriam, [Ring out, wild bells]

Ring out, wild bells, to the wild sky,
   The flying cloud, the frosty light:
   The year is dying in the night;
Ring out, wild bells, and let him die.

Ring out the old, ring in the new,
   Ring, happy bells, across the snow:
   The year is going, let him go;
Ring out the false, ring in the true.

Ring out the grief that saps the mind
   For those that here we see no more;
   Ring out the feud of rich and poor,
Ring in redress to all mankind.

Ring out a slowly dying cause,
   And ancient forms of party strife;
   Ring in the nobler modes of life,
With sweeter manners, purer laws.

Ring out the want, the care, the sin,
   The faithless coldness of the times;
   Ring out, ring out my mournful rhymes
But ring the fuller minstrel in.

Ring out false pride in place and blood,
   The civic slander and the spite;
   Ring in the love of truth and right,
Ring in the common love of good.

Ring out old shapes of foul disease;
   Ring out the narrowing lust of gold;
   Ring out the thousand wars of old,
Ring in the thousand years of peace.

Ring in the valiant man and free,
   The larger heart, the kindlier hand;
   Ring out the darkness of the land,
Ring in the Christ that is to be.

Yes, we use this poem every New Years eve, on national television and long before that, one of the most celebrated actors would read it , in Swedish I dare say, from the Skansen-park, the one I told you about in The Stockholm post. Below you find my personal favourite- Georg Rydeberg, long lost from us. What an actor he was, the voice, the face!!!
This New Years eve we have spent alone, friends couldn't come over, teenagers are sulking and the 17 year old have given me my first ( and last ) full make-up. Salmonsandwiches for starters, chicken with bacon, tomatoes and cream and roast potatoes and frozen cheesecake with gingerbreadcrums and raspberries and saffron.  In church we heard the vicar preach and our local tenor sing . The weather is grey and windy, torches go down and fireworks go haywire.  On national tv we've seen that BBC sketch with the countess and her butler, celebrating New Year with her 4 long gone friends. Hilarious and sad. It's been on tv since I was a child and I know every line from mr Winterbottom. 
So I look back on this year and regret things done and words said. I can clearly see what could have been done better, kindlier and wiser, from my part.  I also think about the beggers outside the store yesterday, a 25 year old girl called Maria, on her knees with a papercup and my old friend Christoff that asked for me, haven't seen him for many months. None of them have a regular base, not in our town anyway. That is one of the things I regret - not doing more for them. 
The world is uneasy and shaking, let's pray that He who holds us in his hands will be more firm handling our chilled hearts. Let's hope for courage, less second thoughts and political crap, more light, more truth and more action where it's needed. Let's pray for common goals and wisdom on the path that leads us there. More walking, living, talking, working,laughing and crying together.  More mercy and O Lord, more of grace and comfort to those who suffer.
A very happy , bright and blessed New year to you all, out there!!!!!

torsdag 29 december 2016

And so they are both gone!!!

Debbie Reynolds passed away only a day after her beloved daughter Carrie.

Sad year this, for the world of entertainment. On Christmas eve we lost one of my favourite authors - Richard Adams. Age 96, so you could say he got a long life. In our family his books have been a great source of joy and excitement.
As for Debbie Reynolds I know rather little, but I always loved Singing in the rain, she was both funny and beautiful. This is one of my favourite scenes:

A friend of mine made a comment when I was moaning about all these famous people dying, she said that I might considder having rolemodels that are more resistant, like saints.
Saints, will keep shining.  Yes, I do have a few very dear saints in my collection of important people, but these stars also mean a lot to us. The voices, the talents, the performances, the joy.
I am very grateful for ALL people that brings joy and warmth to my life. And I do feel bad and sad for every family that looses someone dear, be it tragic or natural. 
Still, when we loose a celebrity, the feelings we carry inside will come forward because it's okej to mourn someone not very close, in public, but it's hard to put words to sorrow when it's hurtful and close.  I've said it before, there are reasons for this massive reaction when someone famous dies,  we need to practise on letting our feelings find words!

tisdag 27 december 2016

Enough ,enough ,enough!! RIP, Carrie!!

Good evening!

This has been a dark year indeed, both in our family, in the world among fellow humanbeings
and in the world of entertainment. Now this morning we learn that Carrie Fisher died from that wretched heartattack she got on the plane!
That lovely, funny, independent and strong princess!!  How we adored her!
Carrie have also been a very strong personality, her life has been everything but glamorous some years, she has been very open about personal disasters and that has brought hope to many.  
So, again, I know my Redeemer liveth, but I also know that Carrie Fisher is dead,  luckily the former outweighs the latter but I'm still very ,very sad.  My thoughts go to her family and friends.  
Read my post from 21 of october, her 60th birthday, if you want to know more about her http://thebadhipperspective.blogspot.com/2016/10/carrie-frances-fisher-brightest-shining.html     .




måndag 26 december 2016

RIP George!

Well, I must be getting old.  
In the middle of celebrating the most bright and wondreous times, we are being saddened with yet another entertainers death.
George Michael, the talented singer, has left us.  I know, there have been headlines on him, for sure he had a tough life every now and then, but that voice!!
I have followed him since Whan broke loose and he really was gifted.
A sad loss for his family and close friends, a sad loss for the musical world.
Here is a Youtube clip where he performs a Queensong, two great things in one.
This year it would have been Freddies 70th birthday....
Michael Parkinson, the very talented talkshow host, did some great conversations with George, I will look them up shortly.

söndag 25 december 2016

Let it rain, let it rain, let it rain, it's Christmas!

Merry Merry Christmas!!
Malmoe, 1944, how say you to this, mr Stephenson!!!?

6.30 this morning we sang Silent night, In the bleak midwinter and O holy night, celebrating the birth of our Saviour.

This Christmas is raincloudy and there is a storm coming in tomorrow. In church where about 125 people, teenagers halfasleep. Yesterday morning we celebrated with about seven different nationalities present in the local chapel, always very exciting.
We took a brisk walk this afternoon and now where in for some coffee, perhaps some scrabble or other treatment and peace will slowly come to the world. Or so we hope. For safety we watched a Christmasfilm - the Polarexpress. Nice and cosy.

This years tree was actually cut in the garden, growing inside a pinetree of some sort. Below is an old elf from my grandmothers house and a goat of wood.  Decorated with no sense for theme or order of any kind, not in our house

It is somewhat strange this commercial celebration, someone made a calculation on how much of the typical Christmas soda we drink in Sweden every Christmas. The money spent on it would buy us 26.000 typical middlesize villas....and that was only the soda!

But still, so many great and heartwarming intitiativ have been taken this christmas, as it has many years before.
Even if many never attend any services, tokens of love between people are very obvious. So, in many places, people don't have to fear celebrating alone, there are places to go. Families with no means can in some cities get help with food and presents, people who lack roof over there heads can find shelter.
But not everywhere I'm afraid. In our own town there is no place to go to celebrate Christmas, there is no place to stay if you are homeless. This is a shame. I hope we can change this.
But still, blessed be all these people who made a difference for someone unknown this Christmas, all over the world.

"God rest ye merry gentlemen, let nothing you dismay, cause Jesus Christ our Saviour was born on Christmas day, to save us all from satans power when we were gone astray -

 O tidings of comfort and joy!!!!"


Yes, I know that this crib is somewhat unorthodox....but it's ours!!!   Blessings to you all!! May the light stay on!