I have no experience of war, except for those we fight among ourselves on daily bases. The domestic little wars have casualties as well, that's for sure.
I know and you know that keeping peace in the family and close by is one of the most important things we have to tend to. It should be easy enough, but never is. Love your enemies, Jesus tells us, to set the standards right. There is no greatness in doing good for those you already love and care for. Still we can't do even that from time to time. That is why we need the blessings of grace.
|For your benefit, here is the water of the river, released from it's icy shroud and preparing for springtime , salmonfishing and the beautiful view of the King Fisher.|
This weekend, not even gone yet, have been filled with disasters and miracles, all at the same time and spot it seems.
Some taken place close, some bringing pain to others. I do get tired sometimes, wish I could do more. But sometimes, we have to take a break, praying, reading, walking,watching movies, yes.
We went to the Filmstudio on thursday to see Almodovars "Julieta". Issues of guilt, repentence and reconcilliation, splendid filming, good portraits. My first Almodovar-film-
Friday, tossed right into the sparkling and highpitched world of Disney, we had promised the girls to go and see" Beauty and the Beast" with Emma Watson as Belle and Emma Thompson, disguised as a tea pot.... The miracle in this is that our youngest have been feeling very bad for a long time, not wanting to go outside the house even. Missed several films she wanted to see .
And a lot more, as you can understand.
But now she actually came along!!!! She brought a good friend along, as did the oldest one and as did we.
In this story , it's hard to know who is the monster. Who is different and who is normal and what is normal? Is it okey to be a monster as long as you don't harm anyone or are you no longer a monster when the urge to harm fades away??
In some cases, people that really appears to be prince Charming actually turn into monsters, never to be reversed?
But when love returns to the monster, loving and sacrificing, the monsters gets a chance to repent.
Or maybe I can just rest in the joy of the film, the music, the colours, the animations and the acting. It has been a great fuzz about Disneys Gay-moments, well, someone else will have to tell me whether those moments were valid or not. Or just plain Disney glamorous?
Finally, this evening, we opened the film that has been calling from the shelf for some time now " The eye in the sky" with Helen Mirren and Alan Rickman. Brilliantly played and horrifying. How can we turn this lunacy?? How can a war become calculated risks? Has that always been the case, how great risks we are prepared to take to win the war?
The warlords of the centuries has altered between joining in side by side, and keeping a safe distance, calculating with other mens life. The tale of two cities comes to mind, with the sacrifice of one for the sake of many. The gospel comes to mind.
God made his calculations and took the decision of being the casualty AND the winner. But he chose not to be at safe distance. In this film, the option is attack with the help of drones and autopiloted missiles. The obsticle is a small child, selling bred outside the targetarea. How many percent risk is too high not to send the missile off? On a safe distance the discussion is on, political, calculated, lawyers, ministers, generals and attackpilots. The giant monitors that displays every horrible detail, the two inside the house, being dressed up with bomb belts, the girl in the street, people in the market.
War is fought every second somewhere in the world. Trump calls for stronger defence budget, Northern Korea is sending missiles, Rakka is under siege, terror is threatening every airport, every tourist event, anytime, massacre upon massacre.
Who is the beast? Who is the monster? Is there something less frightening in the calculated attack with low percentage of casualties? More humane? I can't judge those who try to defend people, try to fight evil in it's most horrible sense.
But I can react, and think that the only thing I really can do, is to keep peace where I am and return again and again to repent and be reassured that grace is holding, God didn't keep the distance, he dies with every calculated casualty and weeps with every devastated parent. Evil won't prevail, monsters will eventually meet the sacrificing love and there will be no more tears. When I hurt someone, even if I don't mean to, I become the monster. When I stop reacting to what is going on around us, it's just as bad. When ressurection day is at hand, the pain will leave us. But until that day we must react, return and repent so that grace can be visible through us, right where we are. And pray for those who have to make these horrible decisions, every day.....
Yes, what a weekend this has been, and it's not gone yet!
But thank you Lord, for the miracles shining through the disasters!!!